Where do I begin? Let me start off by saying that I felt the need to share these things with you because my blog is definitely meant as a place for me to share about my life but also its a good way for me to vent. But if some of this seems vague it is only because some things aren’t meant to be shared for all of the world to be able to read and I have to respect other’s privacy.
First of all, I had my first DNS at the Chicago Triathlon. I was severely under prepared and didn’t want to go into the race like that. I do want to say thank you to all of you that supported me during my training and donated to my fund raising. The biggest thing I wanted to do with this race was support the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society and even though I didn’t race, I did still accomplish that. The way I look at it there is always next year to try again.
Part of the reason I was so unprepared is because near the end of July I started having some health problems. For the past six months or so, I would occasionally get dizzy for no apparent reason. But in July, I had a few bouts of dizziness that were the worst yet. I was so dizzy I couldn’t see straight, it gave me extreme nausea, and I had to call off work a few times. (Not good at a new job) I went to the doctor and she determined it is due to low blood pressure and hypoglycemia. I now have the joy of checking my blood sugar a couple times a day BUT as long as I watch my diet and make sure to follow doctors orders, I have and will be fine. But due to those issues, I didn’t work out at all for a couple of weeks and it really put me behind in my training. Overall, I think skipping the Chicago Triathlon was the best decision for me.
I’ve also been so MIA because since school has started, my crazy schedule has now pretty much become completely INSANE. I’m working two jobs for a total of 45+ hours a week and I have a full time class load. Some classes are on campus and the rest are online. So as a result, sometimes at the end of the day choosing sleep or homework over blogging just has to be done. But I think once I get into the swing of things and really get a routine down, I’ll be missing a little less. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not really complaining about this because I’m really grateful to be gainfully employed and to have the opportunity to continue my education but some days it can be a lot.
And last but not least, Aaron and I have broken up. I’m not even really sure what to say about this. If you’ve been a reader of my blog for a while, you know that he has been a big part of my life for the past three years so it really sucks to have to write this. Right now, I’m just really hurt, sad, and angry. I know it’ll take a while to completely heal and that I’ll be back to normal eventually but in the meantime it just really SUCKS. So now I’m just trying to concentrate on me like doing well in school and accomplishing the goals I set out for myself.
Anyways thats an update on where I have been and what has been going on. I promise I’m gonna try to be more present because I LOVE blogging and I need to be doing things I love right now. I also need YOUR help to make sure I accomplish my goals even if my schedule is crazy right now.
This warmed my heart: “I'm really grateful to be gainfully employed and to have the opportunity to continue my education.” It says a lot about you that in a busy time like this you are still able to see that these are blessings. I'm sorry to hear the news about the breakup. I am always here for you just a call, email or skype sesh away my Disney, running friend! Miss u!
x0x0x Big hugs!
I'm sorry things are so rough right now. I hope things start looking up soon. ((( hugs )))
Thanks for sharing, I hope your situation turns around. Keep your focus on God and he will lead you in the right path.
Praying for you…
Courtney, I'm so very sorry for everything!! Especially b/c of Aaron. I know how difficult a break-up is and for me, I think anger and just feeling hurt is the hardest thing!
This is a perfect opportunity for you to do things for YOU! Focus on yourself! Things happen for a reason and even if it doesn't make sense right now, it will eventually.
Good luck!! I miss seeing you and Becca at the trails!
Ahhh Courtney…even though we don't know each other I am sending you lots of hugs and positive thoughts….you are a wonderful person…I am so sorry that you are going through all of this right now…It does suck you are absolutely right…take time to pamper yourself right now…
I was wondering if you were okay from some of your twitter posts but didn’t want to pry. just know that everything happens for a reason!! i have had to learn that the hard way but there is a plan for your life! does your TNT chapter let you carry the funds to another event since you were sick?? i’m also glad to hear you are doing better. and as far as life catching up with you- i hear ya-i feel like i am finally getting back to the swing of things. good luck with school and work! so impressed!!! hugs.
so sorry to hear about your bf and your dizziness! you are a very strong woman and will get through it! holy cow i can't imagine taking a full load and working 45+ hours – you are a brave woman!
you sound like you've been through a lot! I actually just started following your blog recently. I can't believe your doing a full course load and working two jobs! I'm in my second year of law school and classes + working out + blogging is a lot! Keep your chin up and listen to some good music, haha that always makes me feel better! and dance around like a fool too.
Aloha and hugs Courtney. You have been through a lot but seem to have a good perspective on things. Thank you so much for sharing. We care and yes, you will get back to doing all you love to do. Take care and know I care!
Thanks for your fundraising efforts for the Leukemia and Lymphoma society. You did good!
I am so sorry to hear about your breakup. I know exactly how you feel. A little over a month ago I broke up with my bf of 5 years. I thought my world was over. But it isn't and it gets better. I promise. It won't hurt forever. If you need anything please email me. I am a good listener.
You are certainly busy! I don't know how you keep up with your schedule, kudos to you!
For a second I thought you and I were about to be Meniere's girls together … but not quiet. My whole Meniere's thing started just like you said with dizziness and nausea. I guess I must have passed the blood test part because they never said anything to me about checking blood sugar or anything like that.
Sorry about you and Aaron. You two were so cute together in Florida.
You've had a tough time, but I know you'll turn it around. I hope you have a fun Disney event to look forward too (maybe Marathon weekend??), and get back on track with your training. And don't write off triathlon yet, I'm sure you'll conquer it next year! So sorry about the boy. I've been through it too, an even though we got back together we are still going through a lot of tough times in our relationship. Stay strong & positive. You are a tough girl!